Friday, July 4, 2014

All i want is the absolute potato sadface.png (lossless bitchezzzzzz)

Been thinking about absolute, its implications and how is it related/differs from our world, for quite some time. I've had this dilemma for a day or two now about what would happen in a timeless world. What would happen if you were to move an object? Problem is i have been trying to use our world minus time as a make-do universe host for absolute and it just doesn't hold. No matter how i think about it there is no way you can move something in the absence of time, in our world, it would create a paradox -> In order for it to move it has to exist and have existed  in the new position and never have existed in the original position in the first place. Which is impossible, if it never existed how did it move, how can we know it moved. I'm certain however that i'm looking at it the wrong way, i was just pointing out why i think it is impossible for an absolute world to exist in our universe - time, not with our laws.
What brought this on, and should have started with this, is a phrase i saved on my phone and that is "Everything in the absence of time, is absolute.". I remember i was again trying to define the absolute, or find something absolute ( it's become a small obsession of mine) and thought that in the split second of time, something/anything is absolute, it can't be altered, it's like a photo. Obviously this is not practical, it's not actually real, because there are infinite slices and time flows regardless. It's just a theoretical projection from an absolute universe.
Remember i said we have absolute origins, it's one of those things.
I grow more curious every time but right now i'm stuck and i feel it's a big "stuck" because i somehow have to start the laws of an universe from scratch, and without finding relation between our universe and an absolute one everything would just be a story.
I must go on an adventure to firstly discover and understand our laws of physics. Gonna hire a first grade physics teacher :3.

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Discrimination is quite ok.

Been a while since i wrote anything 'round here, but that's cuz of smoking, i swear i got this weird theory that smoking inhibits creativity - that or my time of re-starting to smoke just overlapped with a "seasonal" crap/block; whatever it was i'm back with a revelation today.
This came whilst i was preparing to make some fries, when i was peeling the skin off a potato. I had already finished about 3 potatoes with one still in my hand about half-way and two left in the sink; And as i was peeling off the one in my hand i was thinking that one more would be enough and i don't need the other one so i had to make a choice. I chose which one, in my mind, based on how it looked, but then i thought, it wasn't nice to the other potato (i know, my morals are strong even for potatoes) so unable to make a more moral decision, i repressed that thought and continued peeling off the one potato in my hand thinking that when the time comes i'll simply think about it then( i know it sounds as if i'm thinking about shit too seriously, but really everything happened much faster, fast-firing thoughts, a process for a decision ~). So peeling off that potato, my mind flew in another direction, because i forget shit easily and i am easily distracted - finished that one off, and without thinking i chose the more "beautiful" potato, moment when i realized that its choosing wasn't coincidental. I had already made my decision so when that thought was unaltered by any outside factor, the true choice came first, the one that i wanted, but that i repressed based on morals ( morals are just guidelines in case i haven't said that before, but the ones i have yet to test/experience on my own, i just take for granted - this is a known fact in psychology however i am too lazy to provide a source).
My point in all this is, it's ok to dislike black people, if you have some valid reason ( they aren't beautiful still goes as valid), it's not discrimination, it's simply a choice you make, and you shouldn't mask that because it's "discriminating". You shouldn't however dislike black people because your pop/society/entourage  instilled that notion into you, for example, because that is just sheepishly following something that you might not believe in, it's not true. It is also not necessarily ok to publicly make your choice known every single time you are near a black person ( I feel like i should clarify, that i chose black people as an example, simply because they are one of the more poignant subject up for discrimination), because it is natural to make sacrifices for a the better interaction of all of us. You should always aim for the median of things, yin and yang ~.
Anyway i have nothing against blacks, probably because i live in a country where i had no chance to interact with them, however i do have a qualm with the usage of the word "nigger". I think the amount of weight that word is given, and how sheepishly it is avoided is fucking retarded. Nigger is just a word, the same way guns are just guns. Whenever i hear the word "nigger" censured in a live-show/movie i cringe.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Boy why you so obsessed with me =)

I'm yet again going through a phase of depression. I don't know maybe it's seasonal depression. Since i started smoking again i noticed i'm more inclined to let myself go. I enjoy smoking even if i'm starting to dislike this weakness i'm indulging into. It's akin to a craving for immediate gains. Well it's basically a drug after all.
Indulging yourself in immediate gains is a vicious slope, you lose sight of true perspectives. And even though i am aware of that, i just can't find a reason, and that's the biggest hit.
Same with working; you work yourself off till you numb any dream you might have. So what's left to do, considering there are so many like me, and so few that are actually happy... get off your ass of course, pft. To what avail? There's certainly a dose of fear stopping me, but only the necessary amount; nah it's simply a lack of reason.  Society has dulled all our senses. A war would spice things up? A common villain. Something to feed the masses. Fuck it, i can't express what i'm thinking in a coherent manner so i'll just stop; I know that whoever felt this can relate and understands, and it's enough.
Haven't written in a while and i thought maybe i'd like to remember this when i'm happy, a dose of my own darkness. There's never light without darkness.